It’s funny how music can put you in different moods or format past events into an artistic perspective. Whenever I hear certain types of house or trance, specifically “Strobe” by Deadmau5, I remember a night from one summer when I went to a high rise condo in Downtown Miami. I always felt that the song put me in a mood that made me happy for the moment, happy for life. However that night was one of the best and most spontaneous that I ever had.
I was with a guy that I dreamed of from afar but never thought I’d even be able to say hi to. But here we were at 3 am on the 14th floor of the Marquis looking out at Downtown Miami while sitting in a hot tub. It’s funny because after all the hardships I’ve been through and all the goals I reached, I didn’t realize until this moment that anything was attainable. Men, Money, Success, Happiness, Anything; all I needed to do was keep to my values and work ethic and in time I would be rewarded. The insecurities, hopelessness, unhappiness, exhaustion, impatience; all of these feelings vanished once I realized how great this moment was and didn’t want it to end.
That night was just a taste of what the future will bring if I stick to the right path. And even though it ended, no pictures taken, I still have a crazy montage of us jumping into the pool, hiding from cleaning ladies, lounging on cushions, sneaking back up to the loft, and gazing on the balcony into the night that plays every time I hear “Strobe.” So in a way, the song reminds me that even though I might feel as if I’m failing, stressed, eternally heartbroken, or slowly losing myself, everything will be better than it was before. The unthinkable, impossible, impermissible will all be within my reach. Just need to be patient and more importantly, be me.
